feels so hard...
feels lyke giving up...
things ain't easy but
i gotta kip ma head high...

why the only thing
i felt now is weak...
feel lost....
feels lyke this not belong to me...
feels lyke was force into it....

not much tyme left....
every second make me think hard
and gave me throbbing headaches which i hate...
hate to be suffer through pain...
pain which i dun wish to be disturb
just for now or if your kind enuf let it be forever....

everything seem to be on the rock baby
doh it dun realli shake hard cause eyes were blind
by lies...

to be true...
i left with no strength...
no patience....
no more words.....
feels lyke i have no brain to think...
just flowing tears on ma cheeks
telling masef just to endure a bit...

bit by bit by bit
till i got no feeling is it?...
is that what u realli want me
to feel and to see?...

i dun wanna see nor feel
any more failure...i cant face one
cause if i do i'll be such a disappoint...

Once is enuf and that will always
be a lesson fer me...

*sigh*

this what i see as i go on with lyfe...
yesterday i smile so wide....
and today needed to cry so much....

just why cant i always be smiling
even if i have to drop ma jaws or i got ma jaws cramp
of smiling as long as i dint hafta fake any smile
i got no problem of smiling as long as
its from the bottom of ma heart...


PS;it lyke new moon...Its always been hym....always...